just as we were wrapping up in the south and getting ready to come north, a phone call: paulo’s mom fell down and hurt herself. so we did some speedy last minute packing and cleaning, and drove north. turns out, she broke her hip, which required a few days in the hospital and surgery to reset some bones. the boy looked at his notes and his mom has been averaging one bad fall per year since 2018, which is not a great record. :(

in the meantime, we’ve been holding up the fort at their place and taking care of his dad, another grumpy senior that struggles with his own set of challenges. it’s hard, old age — and sometimes, it’s especially hard on the ones that are not that old but have been thrust into the role of carers. i have lots of complicated feelings about this, that i’m avoiding processing at the moment. in the meantime, we’ve been dealing with things the best we can, making ladders and other dangerous objects magically disappear, butchering chickens, tricking seniors into having their meds, enduring the temper tantrums… but this is not really sustainable.

and if i was already grouchy at the cold back home, things have not improved these weeks — living in a house with very little heating in the countryside feels like being thrown back into the dark ages. the fireplace is on the whole day (thank goodness we bought a truckload of good wood in the summer!) and so is the little electric heater, but there’s only so much they can do with these flimsy walls.

so it wasn’t at all the christmas we anticipated. still, we managed to sneak out for christmas eve dinner at my parents and there were gifts, which me and my small cousin distributed. i got 2 new gorgeous moomin cups and an illustrated shopping bag by jason polan (whose work i’ve been a bit obsessed with this year). i also got a new boardgame from my older godchild, some D&D dice and assorted socks. :) my mom sent me home with a bag full of leftovers, including some amazing chayotte pie from my aunt!

meanwhile, we’ve been watching a man on the inside at night, while we wait for it to be time to deliver the last meds of the day. my focus is a bit shattered by interruptions, but i’ve been reading lots in the in-betweens — i tore through 1000 pages of alchemised in a few days. i’ve also been swimming on the few days the pool is open during holiday season, and i saw little niece’s christmas party too, where she cried a little looking for me in the audience and didn’t dance much… there’s always a kid like that!

i hope you’re having a better holiday season, and that 2026 will bring only nice things!