this turned out to be an unexpectedly deep week.

i finished listening to when the cranes fly south, and ugh… what a punch in the gut it was. maybe it’s because we’ve been on the other side of this story so recently, but i feel like this should be required reading for anyone with aging parents. the whole thing is just an awakening call to the realities of aging, from the side we don’t usually hear about: the person who is old. as children, we do what we can to make sure our parents or loved ones are safe and comfortable, but from their perspective, do these decisions actually benefit them? and if they’re not perceived as beneficial, then what are we doing…? it made me take a step back a bit, and look at situations from a different viewpoint.

and then, later in the week, we went to the theater to watch “catarina e a beleza de matar fascistas”, to which i had gotten tickets in december last year, not even knowing if we’d be home for it in march. the play was as poignant as everyone said it would be, both inspiring and really painful to watch to the end. i still don’t know what to think about the whole thing — especially of the public’s interaction with it while we’re all collectively trapped there, forced to listen to hate speech for a long time. the reactions of the audience feel both staged and also inevitable, like people are trying to prove themselves by shouting louder… when in real-life i think we would just switch off the TV. my sister-in-law also watched it recently and was as troubled by it as i was. i’m glad we got to see it though!

we’ve been doing some morning walks outside, to catch some sun early in the day and see if that improves our sleep. i’m not sure it’s having that effect, but it’s still nice to start the day with a walk and an opportunity to notice the start of spring all around us. it feels like hope is coming back with the flowers!

it was the boy’s birthday this week, 44! we went to the west coast to celebrate, where the wind was stupidly strong — even the surfers were staying away from the waves. we had really nice pizza, some bolas de berlim and burek from apolónia. we also started a big stamp-themed puzzle that my brother gave us last christmas!

aaaaaah… a whole full week back at home! :D :D :D i can hardly explain how relaxing it feels to be here and to have time again. we’ve taken it easy this week, focusing on the big stuff and getting re-acquainted with being by ourselves. it felt so, so good.

we saw hamnet this week and i’ve been reading howl’s moving castle and listening to when the cranes fly south. the latter is about a senior that is being cared for by his son and some social caretakers and his experience of aging. it’s hitting me a bit hard, having just put father-in-law in a nursing home… but maybe there’s no better time than now to read it.

i went back to the gym today! my right forearm is still a little achy but getting better and it was good to be back to using all the muscles that haven’t moved these past couple of months. they did some maintenance on the sauna and it was extra hot, which felt amazing. i missed it so much!

we went out to eat a few times this week, as if we were starved for food from around the world (indian, korean, japanese, pizza…). but we also ate stuff from our own little plot, which is bursting at the seams with broccoli, cabbages, lettuce, radishes, chard, coriander, etc. maybe it’s all the rain that fell in the last 2 months, or maybe it’s the lack of humans fussing over it — but either way, i’ll take it and make some healthy meals out of it!